A few things recently have prompted me to write this post, but this post (Between The Gaps) in particular by The Dexterous Diva, really hit home for me. Why aren’t I talking about it, raising awareness, admitting I’m not Superwoman? Its because I don’t like admitting that I’m sometimes knocked sideways by Endometriosis. Who likes admitting that sometimes, they aren’t as strong or as with it as they appear?
But having said that, I’ve been inspired by The Dexterous Diva, aka Jo Gifford, who talks candidly about her own struggles with Endo and the pain and upheaval it can cause with your body and your life. Days like today- where I’d arranged to take my family to The Vintage Home Show at Victoria Baths and meet friends there and mingle and browse. Dosing myself up on Codeine didn’t make mush of a difference today- I lasted about 45mins and 20 of those were sat down in the cafe there.
Putting on my make-up and clothes this morning I refuse to let it take over the day, but sometimes it just becomes about making the most of the time that you feel well and strong. Having a blog with a voice in the public realm, I feel a certain amount of responsibility to be honest with my readers- I always have been by the way, but there are certain things that just haven’t come up before.
I’ve been aware I had Endo from 2008 and had surgery at this time resulting in being pregnant. The endo has slowly but surely come back and I’ll be having the same surgery again soon and hoping for the same result. Please wish me luck!
I know this is a departure from what I normally write about and I hope it doesn’t put any of my readers off. I just wanted to do my part for raising awareness and perhaps explain why if you’ve met me in “real life” I might have made my excuses and left quickly or seemed a bit spaced out! I only really want people to see the best of me you see.
|This postcard by fabulous illustrator Antonia Parker is the first in a series with aim of raising awareness.|
Please do let me know if you’ve found this post interesting or helpful in any way, it would be great to learn what you think as I’ll be writing in more detail on the subject of Endometriosis and my own experiences with it in the future.